Man its been awhile since anyone posted on this god forsaken server. it's been awhile since i've been out here. here on xanga and here in chicago. so here i am back in chi town. i moved into and out of  JPUSA in less than a month. that was weird. now i'm spending time pretending to live in a house out on the howard stop with some roommate's that are either other JPUSA alumni, or moody kids. I've been here less than a week and i don't have a job yet. i'm looking for leads, and droping resume's like mad, but we'll see what happens. every lot is cast in the lap, but the final deal is up to the Lord right? even without a job, i feel good when i'm not pulling my hair out. in a free fall kinda way.... gotta love that feeling while the ground rushes up to meet you.... it seems God's always bringing me to the place where my backs to the wall and i've gotta go to him for the stuff. the letters on the keys for 911 should be G O D. well xanga i might never be out this way again, so i love you man, and its been good. you where for a real strange season in my life, or thats what it looks like looking back, but maybe hey thats just all of life, i dunno, one weird phase after another. here's to better days, then and now, there and here, and everything in between. Hasta luego mi amigo

So, i got a car. and in a few days God and the traffic instrucaguy willing i'll have my liscense. man oh man my cars a serious junker. its a 1988 chrysler fifth avenue, and it's got 200,000 miles on it... and i'm in love with the hunk of junk. i started out like... Eh i'll just drive it till it dies, i got it for only 250 bucks so what the heck? then i rode in it and my deplorable inability to fend off my man jeans kicked in and i feel for it. next thing you know, i'm all like, hey whats a few thousand for a new transmission, and i bet i could get a new engine for like 1,500. hopefully i can keep my focus and junk it when the time comes and not use my new car money on giving it the lazarus treatment.... we'll see what happens.